life, as it is

I think I did n 't write in my blog yesterday because I find no time to do it. I was out most of the day and got up late. But as I reflected yesterday about life, most time this happen when I am on the bus, It was hard moment. I know where I want to go in life but the road I picked is a difficult one. And because of difficult road I picked I look upon my weakness and wonder how this will ever work. and some times I can say just as Jeremiah said

Why did I ever come out of the womb
to see trouble and sorrow
and to end my days in shame? Jeremiah 20:18

Wondering in my life have I ever fought enough or have I indulged too much in my sinfulness. I desire to move away from my sinful behaviors, even starting with this blog to make this life worth living by disciplining and being shaped by God. Though the road is narrow and hard to see at times, will I not give up for the search? My hope is in the Lord for that is where perseverance and character comes from (Rom 5)