A slave to righteousness

I know I haven't been faithful to this blog, its been backsliding a lot of struggles and fighting myself out but then I realized because I focus so much on my struggles I forgot God. These pass few days been trying to discipline myself to wake up early and just have a serious time with the Lord. I concluded in my mind that this is not for therapeutically reasons but acknowledge that this is important and God deserved more then my problems before him but also worship and adoration.
I started to read Romans, a hard book to read but something about recognizing the potential of this book has to say sparks my interest. That this book helps explain the meaning behind the power of Christ in many challenging aspect. I was challenge today what it means to to be a slave of Christ. This verse really challenge me:

I put this in human terms because you are weak in your natural selves. Just as you used to offer the parts of your body in slavery to impurity and to ever-increasing wickedness, so now offer them in slavery to righteousness leading to holiness. Rom 6:19

The idea of being a slave to righteousness is abstract. When we see the word 'slave' it equates in our mind something of control and that's bad. But I see Paul as he writing that he's writing to people who are depraved in their weakness that sin becomes there center of their lives. much like me I find. But a promise to cling to, as Paul writes:

But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves to God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Rom 6:22-23

Though we are slave we are free from sin. once we were slave to sin and live and die for for nothing but now we have Christ who gave us purpose and reason to live and more then we can imagine.